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Absolutely stunningly beautiful. Thank you so very much. 💔

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Thank you for reading, Julie. ♥️

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I have experienced this! In a different way. But I so totally understand every single word you are saying and have stomped through the painful dark nights and have searched and found God in the midst of all the pain all the suffering and all the loneliness as well. You are an amazing writer Amber. When I think about that period of time you speak about here I wish so badly for a redo! I should’ve been by your side through all of that. Apparently that wasn’t part of God’s plan. I can’t come up with one good reason as to why I wasn’t there by your side and Emily as well. So it just was not part of the plan.

The pain and the plan. Everyone breathing will experience it . That’s inevitable. No one escapes .

I love you so very much!

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We have each other now and I’m grateful for that. Together we will trust God that we don’t need a redo because all the sad and bad will come untrue in the light of God’s love one day.

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You are so right. Thank you for the reminder my beloved ! God makes everything good and right and true. Amen!

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Whoa - this was beautifully, wildly, and honestly intense. I came across a phrase this week in which an author called what we go through as "useful pain." I'm not sure how useful any pain feels in the moment, but was is evident from this writing, your pain became useful for all of us reading this post today. Love you!

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That’s a perfect description, Carmen. God allows nothing to go to waste. Love you.

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SO much of this spoke to me, Amber. Thank you! The theme of the Light being in our dark places and nights, unravelling the ties that bind and weight us, is an especially great reminder. Suffering has taught me that Love is unending, infinite, and with us no matter what we do, think, or say.

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You’re a living testament to what love can do with darkness.

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Amber, this is so deeply raw and moving. Thank you for sharing it. I need to sit in it and wrestle with it for a while.

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Thank you for reading, Aimee. ♥️ May the Spirit guide your wrestling.

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